Stop the self-sabotage

I had a major epiphany last week, at church. One of my friends was sharing how she had noticed that the very thing she was fearful of, she was creating in her life. Basically, she saw how she continues to traumatize herself by recreating her initial trauma. 

I realized I had been doing the same.

I’m sharing this because we do this. We sabotage ourselves over and over again. You’re probably doing it right now. Don’t believe me? Ask yourself: What stories are you telling yourself about your passion project, whatever that might be? Whether it’s a book you want to write, or a business you want to launch—what are you telling yourself about why it can’t happen or can’t happen right now?

It’s likely the same thing you’ve been telling yourself your whole life. And it’s not necessarily true. 

My parents split up when I was 7 and what I’m realizing is that to my 7-year-old brain, it seemed I had been kicked out of a club. I spent the rest of my days being simultaneously afraid of getting kicked out/rejected AND doing everything I can TO get kicked out of the club/job/clique. 

It’s the most messed up version of Fear of Failure/Fear of Success I’ve ever come face to face with. And we all do it.

So here’s your wakeup call. What’s your deepest fear? And looking over the pattern of your life, how has that surfaced time and time again?

That’s some pretty deep programming, but I know one thing’s for sure. The next time I spot that train coming, I’m finally ready to choose a different platform.

Tell yourself a different story. 

Cat xo

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